Captivating

At work once again....

Happy Resurrection (Easter) Day! My Savior lives. He has risen from the grave and LIVES! What a glorious thing to know that I serve a God that lives forever and ever. The grave could not hold him...death has no sting!

So, despite the fact that I am at work today (and will be till 11pm) it has been a fairly good day. I was able to get some homework done and I finished the fourth Vampire Diaries book in between taking off doctor's orders, checking visitor's in, etc. I feel accomplished today. And even though I have to work till 11pm (which means I won't get home till after midnight) it's okay because I don't have placement tomorrow. (or all week). My placement kids have Spring Break this week which means that I only have my afternoon (college) classes and can sleep in this week. That will be such a nice break.

I have started reading "Captivating" again. It is an excellent book about the heart of women. I am only one chapter in and it's such a good reminder of who I am in Jesus and why I feel the things I do. He created me to be this way. I am supposed to long to be romanced. I was created to. I am supposed to want to play an irreversible part in a great adventure and I am supposed to want to be beautiful. Sometimes, I think wanting these things and desiring for them makes me feel ashamed to want these things. My thoughts include..."I am exactly where God wants me to be so I shouldn't want to be pursued by a man. He will bring him at the right time. I should be satisfied in knowing that. What is wrong with me in that I desire this so much?" And while there is some truth to this, there is also a great lie involved. I should be satisfied in Christ, however, God designed me to WANT to be pursued by a man. He set those desires in my heart. So why do I feel so shameful when I feel this way?

I can't wait to keep reading and be reminded of why I am the way I am....